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ok ok i'm an emotional wreck esspecially when it comes to movies and the romantic one really does it for me...Nicholas Sparks is GOD. there are to what i know the best novels to be made into movies...namely a walk to remember, the notebook and message in a bottle. for all three i cried so hard my eyes were blur for the rest of the day. it's amazing wad a great book and movie can do the heart.
here are the movies i told myself i need to see or will see again by the end of this year
1) a walk to remember
2)Love actually
3) The Notebook
4)Message in a bottle
5)City of angels
6)Notting hill
7) Pretty woman
8)Casablanca
9)Gone with the Wind
10)Love Story
11)Moon Struck
12)Ghost
13)When Harry met Sally
14)My fair lady
15)Somewhere in time
16)Return to me
17)Regarding Henry
18)Untamed heart
19)You've got mail
20)Ever after
21)What dreams may come
22)Bed of roses
23)Sleepless in Seattle
24)Fools rush in
25)Moulin rogue
26)Only you
27)Like water for chocolate
28)Sweet november
29)Bed of roses
30)Kate and Leopold
Monday, February 11, 2008
well yesterday night i spent half of it on the phone with nick. i couldn't sleep, i smsed him and that poor thing called me and kept me awake. we talked about crap stuff and finally i let the poor thing sleep at 3 plus. we made a pack to go to the gym and work out. i told him he can hit the gym i will hit the pool. haha prefer getting wet and submerged does wonders for the asthma.
so today morning despite the late night i made an early morning. i woke up at 9.30. oi that's early ok considering 3 am . well then i showered got myself dressed and walked down to grams over the next block. she was in the loo. the maid was there. i had a cooking class(appointment) with my gram's maid...she makes totally awesome and sinful chicken curry, i learned i took notes and by 12.30 noon i was at my place already on the computer. contemplating whether to write on my blog just as yet. i decided against it and went on upstairs to my room where i could read the latest book i picked up. Sandra brown is god. haha
so yesterday me and jin were like cheap labor lah..lol to dad. he needed someone to help him polish the car we volunteered thinking it would be fun. little did we know we would end up polishing the tire rim. the handiwork was so tiny and it took me 20 minutes to finish one tire well in the end it did shine so i guess good job vicky!!!
i asked my mum on sat so how is i to have a 18 year old daughter. has it sunk in that i'm 18 cause personally for me it hasn't and she was like I'm just taking it as if you were 13 and 14 . just another year I'm trying not to look at the interpretation. that was real touching. well i will ry my best to stay out of trouble. but sometimes i want to get into them i want to feel the heat. i dont want to be shield so much and they understand that and i am ever so grateful.
so i decided to join SC we had to go through a run of interviews and i did. it was real fun actually. i had to go to this room on the 4th floor and wait outside. the candidates for election were selected from this little room so i knew it had to be more then just a set of questions. i entered the room. in front of me i saw two chairs. i went straight in a sat on the one on my right. which was in fact a cushioned one. the other was a normal chair. after sitting on it did i realized that i was being tested and if i didn't move i would suffer gravely. i stood up said my apologies and sat on the other one. they questioned my move and i said it didn't seem right for me to be sitting on this cushioned chair when you both were sitting on normal ones. and i my interview kicked off. i could tell from the looks on their faces that i had already scored points with then so the others were a breeze.
then student council election came in full force. it was so much fun going around giving speeches and trying to pull he crowd in to get them to vote for you. the briberies were also interesting i gave them sweets and chocolates and it was fun actually.me and Shan got real close then he was the bestest buddy anyone could ask to be with when the going got tough.
then came the day of announcements whether i made it or not. i knew i did and i was sohappy shan made it too we were like we are going to do ourselves proud. almost immediately came the days of which our investiture planning was to begin. and so did a lot of crap.
will fill you in later
cheers
vicky
Friday, February 8, 2008
okay so i'm back from my swim and i admit it this whole blog thing is super new and super addictive or at least it will be for a while. i really like the idea of writing and having people to read my writing. like i said over last year i had wrote a book that was in my mind and had written it with such care and soul. a lot of me is in my book and i am looking for a time where i would be able to publish it and sell it to people. not for the money but to have people read my tale.
okay well i left off with the entry of which i spelled out how different i had been in secondary school and how interesting the transition was. when i went to junior college my character was already pretty much fix. i knew myself and accepted myself pretty well. it was an advantage to understand what you are because only then can you really move forward. Swetha was a friend to me since i was in secondary school and when we went to junior college we just became all the more closer. very close in fact and she was a person who needed other people. she needed attention not in a bad way but her personality is as such that at every moment she feels as if she needs to impress people. to be on top of them. many times i have spoken to her and told her that it wasn't necessary to do that. but it was only after a while did i realize that it was how she was made and she couldn't change herself. so i started doing to her what i did to myself i accepted her and started suiting myself to her personality in her presence it paid of well and we get along fabulously now.
then the second friend i met there was Timothy haha that was whom we got the number from. the other friends whom i met were Shan. haha his meeting was pretty interesting and it was me meeting him that changed a lot. in a way his friendship opened many doors for me. i talked Preethi and Meveen and Divya into joining the drama club in our school because we felt that everything seemed like heaven compared to TLS so we ended up joining drama. but that was only for a week.
the following week i was sitting down in the concourse near the cafe and waiting for the rest of the girls to turn up. then all of a sudden i saw swetha walking towards me with shan following her behind. i didn't know who shan was then, he was just some guy in school and i didnt have much to do with guys and so i was just a teeny bit weary.
swetha had asked shan to come along so as to help her with the debates the interclass ones and it was real wad do i say weird for us all but we adapted i put on a front and spoke with him as though i knew him way long ago. and we cliqued. swetha and shan had met first when they at the debates. it was an education to see swetha clique so well with a guy.
being friends with shan was no hardship he was real fun. on that day itself he made it clear that he was attached. lol probably to avoid any future trouble. then shan saw kanesh walk pass. he called out to kanesh and kanesh came to sit with us as well. divya came then and seeing he crowd she got weary. she was quite and careful to approach the us but she did and she sat close to me and asked me what in the world is going on i replied her a friend making session was.
shan spoke of the student council and it struck me what in the world was i going to do with drama. i mean no offense. but i needed something that would stand out in my testimonial. and i knew i could be convincing when i want to so i took up the idea and me and divya discussed it and picked up an application form for SC before we left school. that was our first encounter with the guys. today shan and kanesh and divya are all my bestest best friends in the world. and it all started on that faithful day at the concourse while we were waiting for each other. thanks to swetha.
cheers
vicky
Thursday, February 7, 2008
today is Friday day 4 if i'm not wrong since i turned 18. and i think i'm getting a hang of it. basically i have to act as if nothing has changed but secretly know within myself that everything has changed. well that's my little secret. i suddenly had a little realization that if i were to walk into 7 eleven and grab myself a beer i could walk out (after purchasing it off course) and not be questioned or detained. it was a powerful realization but at the same time i made a promise not to take advantage of this new found power i seem to whole. i shall tame myself till the right day and hour before i totally fully let loose.
haha well I do find myself remotely awaiting that day. im not a creature of simplicity and ordinary. i don't fancy seeing myself flowing into the norm of life and accepting it as fate. i believe in challenging fate and making myself heard. i don't remember myself having much of a problem with that through secondary school. i was what you may call self contained and ready to accept that i belonged in the background when i was in Junior College. it didn't sit too well with me i liked making myself heard. in primary school i made it my personal occupation unpaid off course to report to my teacher respectively about my opinion in which the class was heading and in secondary school i took to a higher level. if i didn't like the way i functioned i spoke it straight to your face whether you like it or not. when i became a senior in secondary school which meant secondary 3 and 4 i stopped even that. i began realizing that the world is a place filled with horrible ppl as often as nice people. but its the horrible ones that leave the most impact. because the more open you were to share your opinion the more openly they would tell me to my face they disagreed. they were very explicit in voicing their opinion. in other words they bullied. and when i spoke of my problems to my trusted teachers they blundered in handling the situation which led to yet more bullying. the bullying had gotten worst. they had started calling me names and one even emptied my bag in the middle of class. the teacher tried to get him back to his seat. they over turned my table. made me exsisting in the class almost impossible. all that because i reported their wrong doings to my teacher and my teacher accidentally blurted out my name to them while confronting. i became a victim of the worst kind of bullying. the psychological kind.
i hated myself i hated school i hated everyone. then i became a secondary 3 student. during th hols i made a promise to myself. i wont ever ever interfere in anything. if anyone did anything wrong in front of me i will act as if i didn't see it. i will act as if i was even cool with it. and i did just that. it became only me and my friends i went low key, i stopped playing an active role in student council. due to the bullying my grades had suffered my fault entirely and i paid the price by being placed in the worst class in the express stream. today i can say hats down that i was the best class any one can ask for. Secondary 3E1 and 4E1 from the year 2005 to 2006 with my form teacher Mr Raj was the bes medicine for someone who was recovering. someone like me. everyday was a joy, the class boys were so funny all the time. all my other classmates from the class before were now in the better classes. they bullied and studied. someone should include these in their resume. may get them noticed.
in my new class i concentrated on nothing but having fun and getting my grades up. and i did for my secondary 3 i was 3rd in class a long way from the second last i got when i was in secondary 2. it was nice to be respected for your grades and nothing else. i started taking care of myself too. grew my hair. lost weight. started taking myself seriously and living my life fore myself rather then the others, my vice principal who used to like me a lot started seeing the changes and didn't like what she saw. she started aiming looks at me that surprisingly didn't leave me in a puddle on blood. he surprising thing was it didn't bother me one single bit. i was starting to enjoy school some of my classmates were weary of me because of what they had heard from their friends who were once my classmates. i just ignored him and put up a front. which i grew very very good at doing.
the only few people who can read into me is my sis and my mum and dad i can fool anyone else. and i did. i was diligent if i should say so myself. and i did every piece of homework. started helping my classmates with their work and they started seeing me in a different light i was someone they had started to depend on. i stayed away from as much class politics as possible. i made sure i didn't have a black mark but i ignored all that they did. it was my life and i had it under control i stopped living it for other but for me and its about time i was appreciated.
that i certainly was. it was an education actually because one of the main culprits of my bullying in secondary 2 was made to sit beside me. he gave me hard time at first. then after we cliqued. even when he gave me stares and rude remarks or uttered vulgarities under his breath i would smile and give him a pat on his head. it was real interesting watching him change not entirely but he started tolerating me and i though i hated him in the beginning and put up a front. after that i started liking him not in a funny way. but my smile were more genuine and i started seeing under the bully exterior. and i pitied him.
coz after it all when i wen back home i had my family waiting for me who helped me thru everything. but him he went back home to money and wealth but other then that him home was empty. to him wherever he is i wish you happiness and hopefully someday you will stop putting up a front because only then buddy would you truly enjoy yourself.
i was like that with my family and small group of friends i could do the wierdest things with them and get away with it. there are not many people someone can just relax with. my friends were like that and i thank them for that, because if it wasn't for them i would never have been able to
pull myself back no matter how close i was to my family i did spend 3/4 of my day in school. they played a huge part. this thanks goes out to Kumareswari, Kaithri, Devannai, Banumathi, Swetha, Priya. without you i have no idea what kind of person i would have turned out to be.